It took me a long time to acknowledge and accept this. I didn’t want to acknowledge that I had a broken mind because that would mean that I was crazy! But once I understood that my uncontrollable feelings and reactions were a result of the impact of the abuse had on me, I was able to relax and learn how to handle my PTSD symptoms and know that I wasn’t crazy!
Trauma never really goes away. It is a part of us that we have to live with every day. How that trauma affects us, depends on the person and the level of healing you we are currently at.
Domestic abuse trauma is severe and can impact our lives negatively for a very long time. The attack on our self-esteem by our abuser was deliberate and insidious. Our abuser attempted to control our thoughts and behaviors by making us feel inadequate and ashamed.
The feelings of guilt, shame and worthlessness are carried with us, until we are able to acknowledge that we were truly traumatized and accept the fact that we sustained psychological injury from the abuse.
Once we can accept that we were not at fault, and did nothing to deserve to be abused, then we can begin to grow and learn how to cope with the mental injuries.
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